As time goes by throughout these 7 years, our marriage was not as happy as I expected. We were going down from the peak of the high mountains to the lowest. We had really bad communication, for our talks frequently turned into arguments. All these years, my husband was a very good entertainer. He went out very often even before I’ve known him. He had a very active nightlife-style which I no longer can accommodate.

There were times, I woke up at 7am and that was the time he came back. I was alone and was the one to be blame not being understanding due to his working needs. Each night he stepped out from the house, my tears would not stop dropping. I felt lost and lonely.

I reached until the max of my limitation that I began to accept the fact that I cannot change him and I just have to accept who he is. I felt I married the wrong person and my life was ruined. In my second pregnancy, I cried almost throughout the nine month. During my second pregnancy I went away with my eldest son to Shanghai for ten days just to cool down myself. Just the two of us, my one year old son, the baby inside me and myself. I was devastated and our distance and the goal of life seems to be in a different path.

I had tried many ways to accept, to talk, to let go but none of these can change my situation. I was living unhappily until I came to know NLRC Kajang in 2015. God never forsaken me. He sent someone to tell me I need to ask God for wisdom. This message was a light for me that drove my darkness out quickly. I decided to commit my time, my heart back to the Lord and church every weekend and joined cell group and classes. From then, everything seems to change. Life is never the same again. I grow up spiritually and feel loved by God Himself, unconditionally.

God always speaks to me intimately at my weakest. My tears no longer shed for my husband but to the Lord alone. God gave me a new love heart to love my husband back again. I prayed faithfully for him. I prayed that he will have his heart back to this family.

One day he came back and told me he broke down in tears after listening to a preacher’s testimony. He decided to change his life. It was exactly the day I have been waiting for 10 years! Here we are almost 2 years later, working together building our home and our dreams. My marriage was restored by the grace of God! I have to remember to tell myself that no one has a perfect marriage, we are not perfect, but I have learnt a lot. Finally, I understand that when my relationship with God is closer, so do my relationship with my husband. Past hurts, hatred and regrets were all healed through this storm. Even though God has made a breakthrough in our marriage, I was still praying for his salvation.

For the last two years, I was going to church sitting alone, there was always an empty seat beside me. My eyes of faith see and know that one day my husband will sit by my side to worship this loving and wonderful God.

Finally, he is here sitting next to me every weekend. God brought him to church by opening and touching his heart, and he accepted Christ and baptized within 100 days. The mutual respect, love and understanding in our marriage is totally reborn.

God is amazing. He answered every tear drops that I shed. What a super marvelous God I have in my life! Without God I am nothing, with God I am everything. Thank You for loving me as Your child.